40 years on a hook the trials and tribulations of ministering on San Francisco Bay and Sausalito

I am feeling virtually totally exhausted inside after some six or seven years of providing dinners and fellowship and music every week and only missing three Sundays from weather and I'm feeling burned out and a women alcoholic  disrupting of the service has continued on for over two years and the police showed up and could do nor would do anything and all they could do is smile at the tragedy of an unhinged woman who has wooed everyone or bullied anyone in a supporting her as an enabler and feeling sorry for her and for her abortion and child taken away and whatever horror stories she has been through and us she gathers enablers together to blame the alcohol and not on her evil Jezebel ways and the women make excuses for her like women do with each other for their abhorrent Behavior when  seduced by an evil mind and the men all want to have sex with her body and now dominates the city of Sausalito like Jezebel and the Book of Revelations who taught fornication in the church and fornicated with its members and so I may be taking an indefinite break from Sunday services and this Sunday, I may be having Church online and with my friend Sandy in Mendocino and I haven't decided yet and it's still up in the air but my inner feelings are a deep tiredness and need to heal my insides from spiritual and professional burnout and that Jezebel has been the last straw and I will continue having Sunday services and but they may be more spotty or I may take a month off and see how things go for I have diminished all of my money feeding people over the years and I'm in debt to 5,000 on my credit card and I'm spending five six up to $700 a month and virtually my entire social security check to feed Minister and entertain people for these past six or seven years and by not having church it puts more money in my pocket and I can travel and move around and have gas money to go to Mendocino and Slab City in Los Angeles and Muir Beach on weekends and I've been a Slave to my desire to minister instead of a son of God doing it out of the sheer joy  and pleasure of giving and it has become burdensome and toil some to me now from the lack of appreciation and support and the insults that I have received and while doing good and spending my own money on the basics and then being mistreated and are not supportive when attacked by alcoholics like "Jezabel"and mental cases like Kenny and their vicious biting dog and even a. Anchorout stuck his forefinger in the front of my face with a little cigarette and I had to knock it away from my face and I stood up and I told him if you want to start something go ahead and this is a sure sign of burnout and I was grouchy and snapping at people from lack of support and helping me against The Wiles of "Jezebel" and finally I have exhausted my resources for far too long and we'll have to use most of my social security check to pay the rent on a condo or an apartment after using 1/3 of my income and then utilities if not included of which could possibly be up to $500 a month and that would take most of the money that I spend every month for Sunday barbecue propane and condiments and hot dog buns and catch up and mustard and barbecue sauce and napkins and paper plates and comes when necessary and cases of Coca-Cola and that I forget to mention propane and all the labor involved of which gets me home every Sunday in the middle of the night whether it's calm on the bay or slightly windy and choppy and scary and all these dark nights over the years after church alone going out to my boat totally exhausted and taken me 3 days To recover every week from the emotional physical and spiritual strain of up to a 12-hour event of which I refuse it to just have a short and sweet meeting and when I do it it's got to be all day and all afternoon and Into the Night also and or take a break and start to rebuild my resources and by selling my boat I'll be able to pay off my credit card debt accrued from feeding for feeding and comforting people with hot food and drink and not to forget a shot of vodka and I used to bring wine and but you would get drunk on it and a vodka bottle is easier to control the bag of wine for commun and all those that say vodka is Jules problem or wrong the alcholic man or women  is the problem and not the vodka and not the people that she bullies to buy her vodka and Bullies to disturb the service if she doesn't yet vodka shot and her Coke and it's virtually impossible to say no to her threats intimidations and Bullies of which are all over as well as subliminal and this disruptive woman along with her abused and potentially vicious dog who barks through much of our services and intimidates other passing dogs as well as a friend of hers, who used to accompany her who is always complaining and criticizing everything and then her bringing an alcoholic who can't control his drinking and a druggie along with her during some of the services and not too long ago and up until not so recently and she virtually is the only one left in town and leader of all sin and disruption and theft and fornication and adultery and abortion and whatever other sins she's committed as well as the approximately two years other service if not more that she and her demented and drunkmor stoned or being a dry drunk or sexually perverse cohorts come to disrupt and not appreciate the sacrifices made in time and money and energy service and services provided over the years!

40 years on a hook and thinking about the universe

The complexity of the problem is it there are other forces moving at the center of our galaxy and my equation is that the entire universe is spinning and not going out in a straight line for the universe is curved and many bodies are virtually infinitely pulling and struggling with other objects orbits and decaying their orbits and the question is what happens when all of the orbits decay and how long would that take is another infinite problem to be solved and Isaac Newton's answer to the problem was the existence of God who corrects orbits that are influenced Buy external or third object and when one looks how the moon revolves around the Earth and the Earth around the Sun and the sun spinning in our galaxy and our universe infinitely turning with the correction of God as Isaac Newton talked about end of which by calculating all the orbits from Moon Earth Sun Galaxy and with the universe also spinning and not going in a straight line outwards for nothing in our universe goes in a straight line in a straight line will end up back at its beginning and furthermore the hypothesis of which etymologically Speaking I'm going to have to break it down to the word God as part of the world and hypo meaning things going down black orbits decaying or upwards instead of hypothermic degeneration and furthermore can be used as evidence by squaring all of the orbits and even hypothetically squaring that the universe is also in orbit around God so to speak and of course with his infinite mind and intelligence being not just poetically speaking the center of the universe as well as factoring in the hypothesis that God is not the center of the universe nor is his mind and but he lives outside of the universe that he unexplainably created and more like a proverbial crystal ball in his hand and in a panoramic way the universe is external and material next to the invisible to our light waved eyes and to say that this may be the evidence and the proof that the early Catholic Church argued against Galilee Galileo that the Earth was the center and is the center of the universe by squaring all the orbits and rotations that are known and are hypothetically known as explain and when they find at the early Catholic Church was right about the Earth being the center of God's creation mathematically and orbitly speaking again condition on the hypothesis that the whole universe is spinning like a Galaxy and what external Force may be pulling on the universe what is Isaac Newton might say was unexplainably God who is greater than math and orbits and calculations of which by his hand can make the necessary Corrections for the Earth not to have its orbit deteriorated before the sun goes into a supernova as scientists say Millions or billions of years in the future or a billion!?